randomarceus: Portrait drawing of Largo LaGrande, green with a purple background. He's sticking out his tongue. (largo lagrande)
Mark my words: the longfic idea I just jotted down in the middle of playing Borderlands will become a complete thing, and it will be good, and I'll flesh out the plot into a complete story and finish writing and actually post it. I have a feeling that somehow, this one will be The One. The longfic I actually see through to the end.
randomarceus: Screenshot of Gale Dekarios in a cartoon style. He's looking to the left. (gale dekarios)
In going to write for Kinktober/Whumptober this year, I've found a certain level of frustration. Every single thing I write feels wrong, every situation not good enough, every single sentence a weird display of lacking skill. Not a fun feeling. But then I go to draw something, and that comes out fine... 
I'll feel guilty if I don't end up posting anything for either -tober event, I know, but I'll feel bad if I post something that just sucks. I fluctuate between feeling like I can write anything at all or write nothing at all, and I'd really rather I get back to the 'anything' stage real soon. I think I've sunk down into being too aware of how other people perceive me lately. That's never good. I think I do my best work when I say "fuck it" to everything and everyone and just make whatever makes me happy.
As much as I want to say I'll "try" to write something for either event (in fact, I already have elsewhere), if I say I "try" and then don't, then I just feel like I've failed. If I say I will do something and don't, I feel like I've failed. I need to write something good, but stressing about writing something good won't help me write anything good at all.
Or something.




(subject of this post taken from a line from this Leunig cartoon I'm particularly fond of; for which I can't seem to find any online upload of right now other than someone sharing it on Pinterest (I first read it in a book of his work))
randomarceus: Screenshot of Gale Dekarios in a cartoon style. He's looking to the left. (gale dekarios)
I've been busy working on my Neocities recently. Meaning I had a streak of about five days of working on it every single day, touching it up, getting it pretty, and the past three or so days now have been the 'chill-out' phase where I write down other things I'd like to tweak/add but don't actually get around to it right now.
My Neocities, affectionately referred to as my Poor Abandoned Neocities at least once (but no longer deserving of that title), sat as a purely text-site for a year or so. Index, about-me, and one page dedicated to something I found kind of interesting. Now it's got an index, an about, and multiple pages dedicated to things I find kind of interesting! And images! And a navbar! I can't help but feel some sort of affection for it.
(maybe, at any rate, I'll get good at HTML. Because I'm not. (Yet.))
I just thought I'd share that.
randomarceus: Portrait drawing of Largo LaGrande, green with a purple background. He's sticking out his tongue. (Default)
The new Mafia game is good. Cesare really stuck out to me in the trailers, and I really like his character. He's exactly as much of a jerk as I expected him to be... and it turns out I just like characters who are dicks, I guess.
Though, I have seen about three posts now of people complaining about the ending (posts which I avoid looking at too hard in case of spoilers), so I guess I'll just have to wait and see if I think the game holds up in that department.
randomarceus: Screenshot of Gale Dekarios in a cartoon style. He's looking to the left. (gale dekarios)
Being anxious but also logical enough to recognise when I'm being unrealistically anxious is so funny sometimes cause I'll be standing there like "oh man... what if the cashier judges me for what I'm buying..." while knowing full well that they don't care, they have no reason to care, and they're probably not being paid enough to care anyway.
randomarceus: Portrait drawing of Largo LaGrande, green with a purple background. He's sticking out his tongue. (Default)
Another thing I'd love to see written more, or write myself again sometime, is more Largo/Guybrush. I have such a weird soft spot for it, and I'm not sure why, since I'm not much of a Guybrush-writer. I need those two in a smutty and mentally unhealthy scenario.

One thing I've been thinking about, though, is how often I think of ideas that I quickly either forget or abandon. This, as well as my last ramble-y similar post, are one of the rare times I write ideas down. Usually they just bounce around in my head until I either a) manage to put one sentence down or b) be all "oh this is such a good idea I'll never forget-- aaand I've forgotten". I need to, every time I think of a prompt, just make a note of it somewhere so that there's no chance of me forgetting. Even if I don't think it's a good idea, or I'm the right guy, or whatever. And I can tell myself I'll get around to writing them eventually, but unfortunately, coming up with ideas takes a lot less time than fulfilling them (and I struggle to finish fics sometimes as it is).
AO3's prompt memes are cool for that sort of thing. Just a large idea dumping ground. As cool as I think it'd be to have a fandom-specific prompt meme collection, I know it'd not get used simply because there's not many of us writing for the fandom anyway (assuming other people did even have an interest in it... but whatever)
randomarceus: Portrait drawing of Largo LaGrande, green with a purple background. He's sticking out his tongue. (Default)
One of the things I'm a sucker for in media, in art, is characters bathing together. And I just had a Very Important thought regarding that:
LeChuck's fortress in Monkey2 is a "getaway & spa", according to One Minor Throwaway Joke. Well, I don't know the details, but I think he and Largo should spend a moment in the aforementioned spa together. It's not quite the same as the bathing thing (which is an idea I've, admittedly, already batted around with them), but it seems like an idea that'll scratch a similar itch.
Don't get me wrong, it'd be uncomfortable for them both-- they do Not have the best relationship during that game (though I doubt they ever did), but Largo'd definitely take advantage of the spa, and hell, he'd need it. He's probably stressed out of his mind.

Though, thinking, I can't imagine a spa would be all that good for a rotting zombie. It'd get gross in there; man's probably falling apart as it is. At the bare minimum, the whole area would probably reek of corpse (though that's not spa-exclusive, that's more a 'being in the general vicinity of LeChuck' thing). So not just uncomfortable (mental/emotional) but uncomfortable (physical/sensory) and generally a bit miserable. Fun!
randomarceus: Portrait drawing of Largo LaGrande, green with a purple background. He's sticking out his tongue. (Default)
I'm getting a new binder for my non-English* Pokemon cards today! Says it'll be delivered in 2-4 hours from now.
My current binder is a 9-pocket Eevee-themed binder from 10-ish years ago, and though it has served me well (and is still in good shape), I've gotten more cards than it can hold now.
The new one doesn't have any design on it, just a plain black, so I'm hoping to coat it in stickers when it gets here. Still, some part of me is sad about moving on from the old one, just cause it's been with me for so long: but I'll keep it in case I ever need a smaller binder for something.


(* primarily Japanese. There's something like 1 French card, 1 German card, 4 Chinese cards in there as well, but not much)

randomarceus: Portrait drawing of Largo LaGrande, green with a purple background. He's sticking out his tongue. (Default)
"oh man! the new Pokemon sets are out! I'm so glad I'll be able to buy product for a reasonable price!" I say, before getting my ass promptly beat by everything being out of stock/ridiculous price markups/constant resellers/etc.

I got some of JP White Flare a bit ago, so it's not like I'm being completely devoid of items here, but this shit is ridiculous. I'm not paying x2 RRP for a booster bundle. I'm not getting an EB Games membership so that they can offer me the chance of being fast enough to get a pre-order in. I just want to open cards for a reasonable price? I want to be able to walk into a store and actually see the newest series in stock. I don't want to tooth-and-nail it out on online storefronts just hoping to find something. I shouldn't feel like this hobby is out to drive me broke when I'm barely even BUYING anything for ANY price because I can never find it.
randomarceus: Portrait drawing of Largo LaGrande, green with a purple background. He's sticking out his tongue. (Default)
I get really anxious about posting fic sometimes, and I kind of... wish I wouldn't get like that? "oh what if this thing you post is actually the worst thing ever and it's over and you'll never be as good as anything else you've written :/" my brother in christ What.
I used to be fine with this! But recently it's gotten worse. It's this feeling that I have to impress, do more, be better. I have to make Content People Want To Read, which is fine for more popular characters in bigger fandoms, but struggles here because not many people want to read the kinds of things I want to write. And I'm not about to change what I create to try to appeal to the mass fandom.
(not that there's many people in the fandom that read fic... I've seen some repeat usernames across my work and others', but it adds up to probably no more than 10 people)

I think a big problem for me is that I'm stuck comparing my experience in this fandom to bigger ones I've been in. "well I got more kudos in Other Fandom" because Other Fandom had more people. because Other Fandom I wrote for right after a highly anticipated remake. because Other Fandom was a completely DIFFERENT fandom, and it's not right to compare. And I understand that fandom isn't a number's game. I know "write what you like not for engagement". I know I probably sound wicked entitled right now. But sometimes it all just feels strange.
randomarceus: Screenshot of Gale Dekarios in a cartoon style. He's looking to the left. (gale dekarios)
I decided I'd try this game this morning, because it's free. It's a hiragana/katakana memorisation tool.
Now, here's the thing. I know my hiragana and katakana. I've known them since I was young. It's embedded in me at this point. But every single time I went to select a response, I'd sound the kana out in my head, double-check the response, 'oh is that right? am I sure that's right?' and then of course it IS right and I go 'oh'.
I figured the 100% quiz efficiency achievement would come if I either got 100% on one test, or on all of them. I did the latter. No achievement. It's not marked as a DLC achievement, so either it's broken or I'm missing something, but now I have to go intentionally fail a test so that it gives me kana to review for a different achievement.
(and, of course, there's the fact that it requires you to buy their DLC for an achievement, which I'm simply not doing. At least not until it's cheaper.)

(update: went back, failed a test, did another, got the 'review kana' achievement. There's another I should be able to get for trying every learning mode once, but since that's a pretty easy (hypothetically) one and the current only other player on SteamHunters doesn't have it either, I'm assuming it's either broken or needs the DLC)
randomarceus: Portrait drawing of Largo LaGrande, green with a purple background. He's sticking out his tongue. (Default)
I got a new record today. Mr Natural by the Bee Gees. Found it at an op shop, a little worn, some ringwear on the sleeve and a little dusty, but really what is "worn" if not "well-loved"? It's not my favourite album from the band (I already own my favourite), but it does have one of my favourite songs of theirs on it, and I'm overall pretty pleased to own it. I've been meaning to get it for a while. Maybe seeing it now was some kind of fate?

30-Odd Days

Jul. 9th, 2025 04:27 pm
randomarceus: Portrait drawing of Largo LaGrande, green with a purple background. He's sticking out his tongue. (Default)
I just realised that as of today, I've had this account for a month now! Here's a celebratory MS Paint & mouse doodle (I didn't want to set up my drawing tablet just for this)

I blanked on what a party horn was called and had to crawl over to Google to search, quote, "mouth blow party thing". But it worked!
(also excuse that the arrow is pointing more at it than at him. it's close enough.)
randomarceus: Portrait drawing of Largo LaGrande, green with a purple background. He's sticking out his tongue. (Default)
New game in a series gets announced (or in this case, gameplay shown for the first time). Fanbase is a mix of 'oh man this looks horrible!', 'oh man why couldn't they have made a game as good as those Old Good Ones that play exactly the same' and/or 'you know what? suddenly the previous game in the series that we've been bashing on doesn't seem so bad!'. This has happened before. This will happen again. Good luck.
I see people complain that the graphics look outdated, though, and I genuinely have no fucking idea what they are talking about. It looks fine to me?
randomarceus: Portrait drawing of Largo LaGrande, green with a purple background. He's sticking out his tongue. (Default)
I'm not too sure what to say today.
I bought Baba Is You on the Steam sale-- I was going back and forth on it, but I figured I might as well.
Deltarune got a patch, including these fix notes:
  • In a room where Susie destroys houses, she no longer stops moving erroneously after the battle. However, she now slides around erroneously. Apparently this is better
  • Attempted to fix issues on Board 1 where you can see duplicate Ralseis as well as make Ralsei disappear indefinitely.
I find that first one funny, as I do the second. "Attempted"? At least you attempted, though you using that word makes me feel like Ralsei didn't really want to listen to the fixes.
While I'm on the topic of Deltarune, I really need to finish Chapter 4. I got the game basically right as it was released, got 3 done pretty quick, beat the Jackenstein fight in ch4, and then just... ditched it. Though I'm sure I'll have a while before ch5 is released, so little-to-no rush here.
randomarceus: Portrait drawing of Largo LaGrande, green with a purple background. He's sticking out his tongue. (Default)
I drew a small comic not too long ago for someone, and it was fun and I really enjoyed doing it and I thought "hey maybe I should do more comics if I like it this much?". That's a great plan in theory, and you might think that it'd work fine, but... it doesn't. Nothing I do or try ever feels 'right' or 'good enough', and I don't even know what I did with that initial comic to make it feel 'right' in my mind.
randomarceus: Screenshot of Gale Dekarios in a cartoon style. He's looking to the left. (gale dekarios)
I was at a card show today.
Now, my personal grail, my white whale, my 'yes I could've just bought it off eBay but do I trust the post?' card is the 1998 Pokemon Vending Series 3 'Imakuni?'s Corner' card. Great card. All the Imakuni? cards are, and I think it's a shame that not many got English releases. It's a bit of a weird card, and for that reason I made a joke right before the card show that it would be reeeeal funny if I saw it here, but come on, what are the CHANCES of finding that one super-specific card I love at a place like this? Very high, apparently, because I saw it almost straight away. But I didn't buy it then.
I walked through the entire show with it at the back of my mind-- the person selling it had all these slabs out and you could just pick them up (some of them were expensive! aren't the trust levels in places like this impressive?), and it was my first time ever holding a graded slab, it was my first time holding that card that I've wanted for ages in person, and I mean sure I looked up the price and it was cheaper in some spots online, but that's not factoring in postage for one, and for two... it's literally across the room from me right now. It's sharing the same space as me. If this is my white whale, then what was I doing? Lollygagging about with the net?!
I checked every single other stall to see if anyone else had it, and nothing. And when I decided I'd buy it, a couple hours later by that point, it was still right there waiting for me. So I got it.
I'm just pleased to finally own it. It's been hard to bite the bullet on buying it (I turned down some $10 cards for being 'too expensive', funnily, and this was... a little bit more than $10), but I figured I'd never be in a situation like this again. The vendor made a comment about how it's a rare card, and I laughed a little and said I'd been meaning to get it for a while, and I held it in my hands and stared at it for a lot of the trip home just trying to wrap my head around it. It's here, it's real, it's mine. Isn't that brilliant?
I also got some $2-3 dollar singles to fill in some gaps in my collection (I'm going for the full Pokedex), as well as a pack of Journey Together.
randomarceus: Portrait drawing of Largo LaGrande, green with a purple background. He's sticking out his tongue. (Default)
It's been long enough since I've made Vegemite toast (or really anything-on-toast) that my distribution skills are way out of practice. You don't put enough on and you get a weird chunk of nothing-bread and it's just that boring dryness. Too much, though, and you get hit with The Flavor full force. I never feel like I'm putting enough on, but the flavor's strong enough that I absolutely am.
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